Alpha Salmon

There is apparently an alpha mate in the tank. The super big one. According to the volunteer breeder there, you can easily identify them by the size and the way they act. After listening to all their breeding and fertilizing stories, I couldn't help but wonder: What will the alpha human male suppose to look like? ( Do I sound like a geek? NO I AM NOT! I am a very romantic person! )
I feel almost guilty holding a big salmon sandwich while watching them struggle up stream and working so hard in keeping the eco system alive. What can we do but eating salmon bums! Yes, lot of dead salmons in the river. It is of course not the reservation's fault. Salmon do not eat during their whole voyage upstream to the spawning grounds (waters). Since swimming upstream on an empty stomach and ending with a rigorous spawning ritual, they probably die of exhaustion or malnutrition.

Also, their cells are used to maintaining homeostasis in a salt water environment. This is just a guess, but it's possible that the transition from salt water to fresh water can cause their cells to absorb too much water and cause massive cell death resulting in death of the organism.

http://goldseal.ca/wildsalmon/life_cycle.asp

Salmons can get a bit scary(or painful) looking during spawning season.

Life of salmon in certain way resemble human life circle, somehow there is a kind of tragical beauty about it.They are of course not thinkong about " purpose of life". If I ask them, what is the purpose of you swimming upstream and lay eggs? They might just give me a blank look into the universe. But somehow in the so call human world, they serve a purpose. So us as human being, are we also serving " purpose" to a bigger more advance intelligence or being? Maybe only them can look at us and answer the question of so call " purpose". But again, who can answer the same question for them? I guess, this question is the drive of a urge to worship the almighty power, the unknown.

I guess the breeder might have missed the intellectual part of " alpha mate" . A big fish might look like one, but a smart fish might be more important to keep than only the big ones. But again, how can you judge a fish is smart or not, it will be just as difficult as judging a male is a virgin or not... ( I am not being very nice here, sorry)

I am sick and tired of people telling me, you are thinking too much, you worry too much. I feel like they are almost trying to play the role of that almighty super being, and trying to reduce me to a fish or a monkey which might never " think" according to our standard. How proud you are! By branding yourself as a monkey, or trying to control others like they are monkeys to serve your purpose! ( I am a bit irrational )

Finding "it" : )

I have a Dream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I got a big head and sore arms writing all those statements, but happy for myself. My own journey of discovery. I am proud of myself for having the courage having the power to alter my own fate.

I will be all set once I found the "it".
The it that worth to live for. For now, unfortunately, not making baby and serving my husband.

I really sometimes wish I can get satisfied by being a lovely and healthy housewife or doing the same job for the rest of my life. I really do.

But I really can't. It was so painful trying to find the "it". It was painful facing all those criticism and discrimination even from within myself.

statement of aims and objectives

I have a dream: to build a multimedia online publishing house, a publishing heaven for the people. To provide low to middle income Chinese people easily accessible on-line training. In order to better prepare myself for the challenge, I have 4 main goals to reach during my study in the SFU MPUB course.

Aim One: To gain a better understanding of the Canadian Publishing Industry

Objectives:

· Gain a better understanding of copyright issues and government regulations

· Understand marketing for publications

· Study project management and budgeting for publishing

· Look into the future though study of the past

Aim Two: To build my portfolio of publications

Objectives:

· Create my first e-base educational publication

· Develop a paper based bilingual magazine for low to middle income English learners in China

Aim Three: To research

· Research into the publishing industry in China in comparison to the Canadian publishing industry

· Identify market potentials and current issues

· Study impacts of digitization and e-publishing to the publishing industry in both Canada and China

Aim Four: To Network

· Build a strong supportive team with fellow students and faculty

· Identify key players in the industry and volunteer for key networking events

statement of Interest for sfu

“Learn without thinking begets ignorance. Think without learning is dangerous.”

- Confucius Lun Yu Chap. 2

The future of China probably belongs to people who can both think and learn independently given the proper tools and access.

My interest in educational multimedia publishing dates back to my studies for my MA in Computer Animation. One of my research projects was the use of multimedia applications In English mainstream schools. (see attached letter) After interviewing numerous teachers and advisers from the local (UK) education directorate and working as a teaching assistant for a local school in their art and technology program, I discovered multimedia publishing including the use of new media and that computer games can be an excellent tool in assisting and enhancing students’ interest of learning. Upon graduating, I began working in the 3D animation industry on a production titled “World of Words”, a computer program that uses 3D characters to teach children how to read and write. I have also worked on mainstream games such as “Spiderman” for Sony Pictures and a “direct to video” production of “Hot Wheels” for Mattel while at Mainframe Entertainment.

In 2007, I traveled back to China numerous times while working for Next Level Games as a designer and liaison between our two studios. Due to my love of reading and book collecting, I visited publishers in Beijing and Shenzhen. During my travels, I discovered a tremendous amount of new publications and also publishing houses interested in cooperating with foreign publishers in game arts and multimedia technology. I noticed that those massive book stores and Multilanguage publication centers were always full of people and I could feel the hunger and desire for ordinary Chinese people to develop new skills and communicate with the outside world. I have always been one of them and I understand how they feel and what they need. I realized there is something I can contribute; there is something worth devoting my life to, multimedia online publishing, a publishing heaven for the people.

There is a sea of change going on in China and as I traveled the country sides and inland cities, I saw, in the eyes of a population, a people looking for a better way of life. China’s education system is going through semi privatization and it can be very costly for Chinese low to middle class families to gain a good education. I’ve heard the sad stories of migrant workers from inland China, some of them who are desperate for training and access to an education, but can never afford it or have no idea where to get it. I can’t help but wonder, can anything be done through the development of affordable online training and publications? Can the internet be used to show them their options and give them hope for a wonderful future? Maybe one day, in China, learning English will not be just for the rich, but for anyone who has the will to learn and access to the internet.

Fuelled by the desire to delve further into the field of multimedia publishing, I took some freelance work from a local e-learning company call “Circle Learning” in Yale town. I also attended many workshops, including a 5-month program on Multimedia Technology Studies in UBC to gain expertise in the field of creating multimedia websites.

I am a good designer and I have taught myself advance level English and successfully complete my MA studies in UK in Computer Animation. I have broad level of work experience in design for interactive media and I will continue my advancement in the field while gaining valuable knowledge in the publishing industry.

As I browsed through the list of schools, I found SFU Canadian Centre in Publishing. Your course fulfils all my requirements of a well-designed general study of the publishing industry: great facilities, broad curricula, flexible course structures and practical training opportunities.

I am aware that intensive study in a specialized field is a difficult task to achieve and excel at. But I strongly believe that what we persist in doing becomes easier for us to do; not because the nature of the thing has changed, but because the power to do it has increased.

I know where to direct the force of my will, to ensure that my career doesn't lay within the ruins of indecisiveness. In this decision alone, I choose the only path that shall lead me to certain success in your program. I would like to take with me, in addition to knowledge of Multi-interactive media and Design, a network of strong and lasting relationships with my teachers and fellow-students. I hope that my background and qualifications are found suitable for the Mpub Program.

Travel Plan after May

Dempster Highway
Yakaking with Killer Whales
Mt Robson Provincial Park
Juan Perez Sound and Hot Springs Island
The Inside Passage
Pacific Rim National Park Reserve
Gulf Islands
Beachcombing by Helicopter
Rocky Mountaineer Train Trip
See Brackendale Bald Eagles
Della Falls
And Salmon Fishing in Queen Charlotte islands

I still really really want to go to the Northwest Territories and Yukon and get really really away from the city face only the nature by myself. If you don't see any post in 4 months, call the police for me please.

My website

My website: www.laurenliang.com

It has been completed a long time ago. I will upload my new work there very soon : )

Got accepted to the Master of Publishing Program

It is a master degree in SFU. I am not sure I should go though. It is one and a half year long.

But it sounds very interesting. I am working on some very fantastic character models which were designed by myself. I love working on them. And I am becoming a master in Flash now.

It is so much fun. Meeting Jill the VP from the e_learning company. She will have some freelancing for me to do for a medical project to help train nurses working for most of the major hospitals.

It is best time i ever had working from home and making arts and upgrading my skills and read!

I might volunteer for st paul's hospital before my trip after May. The lady from the UBC center will show me around there. Can't wait to help people in need...

Yes, and I had registered for the sea navigation class on granville island and also the basic cruise course. It will be so much fun. Not sure I should join the gulf island 5 day sailing class though.

I will bring my laptop and travel around BC this summer...while freelancing for circle learning in the medical project.

So buddies, there are indeed lots of positive things going on there just i were too lazy to write about them.... I will try to put them on my site too so I won't make you cry too much..... I am doing great. Never been so good in my life.

It has been a long time not feeling like a machine but alive and breathing.

Author of Lust .Caution ---- Zhang Ailing

“我立在阳台上，在黯蓝的月光里看那张照片，照片里的笑，似乎有藐视的意味，然而那注视里还是有对这世界难言的恋慕。 ”
　　——张爱玲

　　1995年的9月8日，张爱玲一个人在纽约的公寓孤独地离去。这位本世纪中国最优秀、最惊恐不安，也最沉静的女性作家，为其传奇般的一生画下了一个诡异的句号。

Why I feel that she is talking to me from her old pictures. I wonder if I can go back in time, would we became friends? I would bump into her in a store in the state, and just start talking. If that happened, I would have been around her when she was dying in a tiny apartment in a strange foreign country with no one around.
　

What kind of love life she had? Is she really evil?

It is hard to be honest to myself

It is hard to be yourself sometimes. Accept the negative part of you, look back at your thoughts and anger.

I choose to be at least honest to myself, to be truthful, no matter how ugly I actually am.

2007 Miss World is from China : )

She is so Pretty!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! : ) I am so proud of her. I wish I have long legs like hers : )
So, officially the most beautiful girl in the world in 2007 is a Zhang ziyin from People's republic of china.