Another man on the street want to buy me dinner ( why I am not in Italy instead )

Here were I. Walking down homer back to my place 12:00pm bright day light. I admit, the shirt I had on was a big low cut.

Here comes a middle age man again, ask me where I were from again and " Can you stay in Canada? Are you working or studying? You live in Vancouver? " I want to right give him some hidden dragon and crouching tiger up in his sin organ. I asked him back all the same questions. And at the end he said: of course I can stay, I am very rich!!

He say: you are so gorgeous. You are very beautiful. I really want to buy you dinner.
I want to ask him: If you really think I am so beautiful, why you think you have a chance dating me when you are in your 50s waiting around the corner to talk to vulnerable Asian girls like a looser? You mother fucker think all Asian girls are desperately want to stay in Canada who will sell themselves out like hookers? ( I want to form an :' asian girl anti freak vanconver resecue emergency service.' ) We have the right to immigrate anywhere we want. There might be really something that some Asian girl had done that kind of promote this kind of sickness. If that is the case, I want to reach out to them, and help them to get to stay with their own ability and kick all those freaks' asses.

I regret that I didn't kick his nut and give him a very good lesson. Like pouring boiling wax up into his anus and ........

Apologize for my violent thought.

I got a call from the doctor

I might be able to learn Italian again.There is no other reason, not for getting jobs, not for being fancy. Just that I want to learn the most beautiful language on earth which were designed by a poet and a real artist. ( ok! i admit it! I kind of want to be fancy!! )

The doctor's office called me last night ( which is rather strange). A lady told me on the phone "Doctor Ye will like to discuss your test result with you..." I hope is not something serious...
I only had sex with ( almost )one same person about( kind of ) 2 years ago. How big is the chance I got HIV? I eat only things without nutrition and look like shit, how big is the chance I got cancer? I only stay at home 90% of the time, how big is the chance I got Ebola Disease?
But again, I got genes from my parents which I have no control over with, how big is the chance I want to stay single?

Recently I really want to go home to my family and to China. I missed my granddad. He is 88 now and not feeling well most of the time.

I am so full of Shit sometimes. I even feel bad seeing all the fishes I got getting killed, but I am buying bit and pieces of fishes all the time from T$T anyway. Even everyone on earth turn vegetarian, the conflicts are not gonna to be solved. There are more fundamental things than not killing things.

Which is : Killing all the people instead. ( I deserve to go to Hell where I might be able to meet with chairman Mao and ask him " what the hell were you thinking! How you did all these! There is a book about you that is 800 pages in English now! I am kind of proud of you sometimes but hate you as well. My dad want to ask you: why?)

I think my writing style need to be refined a little bit.

A sketch of my dream

Just did this little sketch an hour ago. It was one of my dreams: someone was crying for a dying plant and she wish she can die too, and there is someone left her with this pain on her forehead. She will never be able to get over it and all she want to say to me is please let me go and I want to be with my plants............ It was a weird dream.

I believe I can do this, and really I have no choice.

Tomorrow is my physical exam.I won't be able to eat for 10 hours before that. Hopefully I can find out why my joints hurts recently.
Thursday my interview. Wish myself luck.