I went to Banff about one week ago. It is such a beautiful place that I wish I can disapear into the landscape and forget about all those difficult decisions that I need to make the moment with my parents and my own happiness. It is so overwhelming and I feel so alone that only the landscape of the rocky can give me some comfort and mental support.
I guess my attitude towards relationship might be a bit off with the society. I consider marriage is just a way to control the other person and a written agreement of responsiblities and it means nothing while concerning the quality of the relationship which is always just between the two of you and by getting marry will just make things more painful. Marriage used to be a protection for woman and her kids against uncontrollable lust in human nature.
