I didn't tell anyone about this. His name is a secret.
Just want to talk about this painful event here in this diary -no- one- reads.
I had my first one night stand a few months ago. It broke my heart and it was one of the worst thing I had ever done to myself. I really like if not love him because I believe he is a very nice person and he felt the same for me. But it turn out I am totally nobody in his life and he just have sex with me because it was convenient.
I felt like a piece of trash. I called him names the other day and he was not very happy about it.
I can still feel the pain. Is that because I love him or just my self-esteem is complaining?
He is probably not someone I will get alone with once I really get to know him and might not even worth my time to think of. Maybe it is better to end this way or even better end with a double slap on his face.
I probably really just like a prostitute to him. ( he did offer me 2000 dollar from all those money he won that night)
Will my love life in 2008 get any better?
